so sick.

you know,
im so sick,
and tired.


this is the 1st time since my primary school days since i cried over juvenile friendship conflicts that does not directly involve me.
sounded really stupid, aint it?
i dont know why im vexing over such stupid issues when i have more than enough for myself to handle,
for instance, finding a permanent job, getting my car license, try to search on more alternatives for uni.
next thing i know,
im glad.
no, the feeling that im experiencing now is more than glad.
alot more.



maybe the people involved means alot to me,
leading to the forceful reactions and annoyance.
maybe its my habit of doing things my way, trying to want everyone to agree on my wants and my thoughts.
maybe i got so agitated because i like debating,
and i feel the need to win any debate.
maybe..




i always have very strong beliefs in my own mindset and impressions.
and i hate the way how people try to change my mind.
in short,
you can refer that as stubbornness BUT, seriously, i'd like to see myself as the 'always right' in any situations,
until unless,
i see something that can prove me wrong, otherwise, no matter how terrible it goes, i will still stay strong to my beliefs.



im happy to be able to have this companion who have a very very similar mindset that just happened to click on my name in msn and start the conversation half an hour ago.
i'd say,
he is my best friend whom i respect,
for his way of handling things, people, and the way he keeps quiet, observe silently and then decides for himself what is right and what is wrong.
the conversation lasted for a mere 15 mins but it made my day.




he is my hero.








but still,
heroes do make mistakes.


(lim, 2008)
tears are meant for the worthy, the worthy ones wont make you cry.



then why did god created us with the program of crying without having the system to be able to be disabled?
then why did someone created the term 'tears of joy'?
STUPID.




stil hoping..