the continuation.

was browsing through the past and saw something that continues my thoughts the other night..

here goes:



it pains him to see our picture. you remove it. it pains me now to not see our picture. wad you goin to do hur?

i feel sad ____. i really do. when you get all pessimistic and tell me stuff like the world doesnt need you and you dont need anyone in your life. bcos tt makes me feel like an extra in your life. and its confusing me. you seem okay to me, just a lil fucked up at times with life, but you're indicating very strongly to me that you are so fucking sick of your life. im really confused. are you really so sick and tired of life or is it bcos you just wanna heck care about life, or is it tt you're on ur emo streak or what have you. i cant think. i cant see through you. i really have no idea. so please ______. enlighten me. if you are serious with me. bcos i feel miserable almost every other day. but dont fret about it. its not all about you. its mainly about myself. im just like you. i want my life to be perfect. who doesnt? im unhappy with my life. and i have no goals in my life right now. im feeling utterly lousy. dead rotten. and the least you can do for me now is to feel lousy about life. i need you to push me on _____. i wan you to be happy. and naturally i will be happy when you are happy. you know sth? you're really someone who made a difference in my life. and it was you who brought me back to life a year ago. if you remember. it was like the worst phase ever, in my life when you appeared and turn everything right for me. im thankful for tt. and very glad tt i have you with me now. you know i have my unpredictable emotional outbursts, so please pardon me. same goes for my curt words. all in all, thanks. for making my life better. this aint going anywhere. i feel stupid typing so much tt i wanna just delete them all. yeah. just wanna let you know.

<3




and i hope you're doing good. (:
you're still very much appreciated!