damn right.

i peered to the bottom right hand side of my laptop's screen.
the time reads 7.29am.
i've been awake since 3.17am.
watched the television, ate mac breakfast, had a chat on MSN.
surprisingly, it was the conversation on MSN that triggered me to start on this entry.


things havent been going well in this whole group of people.
people whom i've been hanging out for quite a while, occasionally, frequently, and even none.
i mean, we've all been through arguments since young, but at this age?
why'd people still have such issues on friendship problems?
are they not honest enough?
are they too close-minded?
are they too juvenile?
this problem, which started out as a minor problem, had ended up as an eventual major disaster almost too quickly already.
whats the big fuss?
seriously, i dont see whats wrong with these people.
if this issue was to be brought to court, i daresay the judge would close the case by stating that there isnt a case to start with.



getting kinda confusing if you're not one in the group of people i've referred to i guess.
nvm,
i'll elaborate.
like one of my previous entry, people like to follow the crowd.
they get influenced easily, because they choose to allow that to happen for one reason;
they dont wanna be the 'uncool'.
so they start to get judgmental based on the crowd's (in this case the 'cool' people) opinions.
in this case,
you wanna know who's the victims?
everyone and anyone.
why?
the person who got bitched: suffers from tarnished reputation based on untrue facts and bitchings.
the crowd: trying too hard to be 'cool' and believes untrue facts, only to end up looking gullible and will never find out the truths.
the 'cool' people: telling lies due to selfish reasons; wanting everyone else on your side will only lead to 2 endings. one, having a hard time fighting your conscience, or two, go to hell.



this is getting nowhere!
why are people so insistent?
are they really stupid or are they blind?
i mean,
whats the big fuss about?
people come and go in our lives..
we only need the good ones to stay.
people have their lives, friends will not have all their time in the world to walk through your shits with you.
as we grow, we have increasing amount of responsibilities,
like work, family, relationships..
now that we're young, and we have time to spend with our friends,
i dont see the point in making things complicated and unhappy.




oh,
i read mosey's blog.
for a moment, i swear i felt like crying when i read his post with my name on it.
the as i scrolled upwards, i saw some words that i felt was unjust.


(lim, 2008)

"figured out some friendship problems between a good friend and future-good-friend.
i think i should just let them settle the problem themselves.
since my advices have been fallen on death ears, i dont really give a damn anymore.
i used to speak up a lot because i felt it was unfair to just judge a person only from a negative angle. but how long have i known you, ___?
you always make things look exaggerated and make yourself look victimised.
i cant help you in anyway now and then, but i can tell you very simply.
you can continue all your nonsense and i will put you aside just like how i put my watch aside.
it is so damn simple. but nevermind if you should ever think that losing me as a friend is nothing less, AS USUAL.
i grew tired of your nonsense and tolerated with it for the 5th year to come.
i've seen your true colours all these while and it just takes one last nonsense to end it all."



i dont know man but honestly,
maybe some people just dont know how to control their emotions?
just like how we are made to function and react differently..
maybe im not you mosey,
and i've never taken such shits that you've tolerated for the upcoming 5th year.
in the 1st place, why would you tolerate this nonsense that is too much for you to take?
my next statement after your reply would be,
she wouldnt be considered as a friend if the term tolerate is used in the above passage.
yes, people have their friends, and they have their choices.
you all like to claim that she'd only come crying to you guys whenever she's in shit.
have anyone wondered from another perspective why is she doing so?
i hereby declare and confirm that she treats all of you as important people that she loves.. thats why she'd come crying to you guys cos she knows that she can find comfort here, with us.
and its not like she abandon you guys when you guys are going through rough times.
right?



i find it unjust.
by the way how you guys are talking about her.
and the way you guys insist and feel that you guys are right, and all the she deserved it kinda shit.
i was neutral, until i saw the way everyone's behaving.
irks me terribly you know.
until i feel really annoyed and almost ready to take a side.



there's no indications that im trying to interfere with this matter.
for 2 reasons,
one, im not directly involved and i dont wanna get involved.
two, i find it stupid and redundant to be bothered by this.
im just stating my opinions, and letting the world know of how i feel.



rightt,
i forgot to add the fact that i dont like the new girl.
not because of the stories i've heard, but because she was rude to me by not smiling at me and neither did she try to initiate a conversation with me.
yeah,
dont give me the bullshit that im not close to her thats why she cant possibly strike a conversation with me.
check out the way she handle conversations with the guys yo.



new girl 2 was pretty okay tho.
(:
i like the way how she handles sexuality issues.
if you get what i mean.




okay enough of killing my braincells.
shall do a quick update on my current life.
nothing much, just bowling, mahjonging, working, driving, partying.
met up with jie and max for dinner at geylang for frog legs porridge,
and then gillian and cheemun ge came and took over the babysitting job of my and wenbang.
lol.
they brought us to T3 and we had muddy mudpie at coffeeclub.
(:
we went out on vesak day as well, headed to vivo for kimgary hongkong food, then to east coast sunset bay for beer, then to west coast for cheap thrills.
ended my day dozing off while playing mj at bear's place.
wah lao, how terrible is that.


im currently at stage 3.10 of driving already.
6 more lessons b4 i complete the whole driving course.
im really really excited for my TP.
not mentioning the fact that im more nervous than excited.
lol.



oh,
dad and mom had a talk with me about my current life.
and they are pretty unhappy with me doing nothing.
the talk made me feel like i was living for nothing in particular.
it feels like the world just crashed down on me.
but damn, i need to try to concentrate on driving, before i start making my next move.


im counting down for eunice to come back on fri..
then we can do some constructive stuff next week
(:



i feel that im having terrible outbreaks of bad emotional behaviour very frequently.
i dont know why but i really cant help but to feel annoyed and pissed of over the most minor reasons.
damn.



its a really super lengthy entry i bet all of you guys are falling asleep already.
alright.
9.33am, and im all done.




and you jolly well know that you're escaping..





for a better tomorrow..