wonder.

love, its yesterday no more.


its been awhile since i last updated.
im not exactly feeling very well.
maybe i should add a sidenote to readers that im actually typing in a very monotonous manner.


why?
you'd ask, i presume.



well,
it goes back all the way how it started.
expectations, wants, desires, needs, and balance.



i've been seeing loads of rubbish and nonsenical moments lately..
some moments were so extreme i felt like taking a knife and stab people who went against my words/ways.
some people give all they can, some people think they gave in all they can, some people dont give a damn, some people dont want to get involved, some people try to solve complicated problems, some people, some people..
who are these people?
why are they making things so difficult?
i doubt anyone of of these people wish for things to turn out in this manner.
maybe its just me.
and my expectations.
or rather,
high expectations.



as much as i dont want to swallow the ego and admit,
the big day was rather disappointing.
its prolly the last time i'd try to create something that tires myself out with no returns.
call me superficial,
i've got no objections.
im downright realistic.
i will never, NEVER, do anything without expecting something in return.



and THAT,
is the way of life.





why bother?