if only..

hello nobody.
i'd use the word nobody because there's no particular one that i wanna spill this shit to.
i feel like crashing.
i just need to thrash all the horrid things that i've gone through for these 3 days.


when i thought everything was going in the correct direction where i could almost feel the sun shining, shit has to happen.
monday was tiring; i had classes all the way up to 9pm. feeling absolutely lethargic, i headed home but got misunderstood by the boyfriend.
tried to iron things out but received nothing but hostile responses.
ended the night early hoping that tml'd turn out good.


unfortunately,
tuesday was fucked up.
so, there was the confrontation.
was so shaken emotionally.
god dammit.
had a good lesson learnt though.
changed my bad impression of someone totally.
and im thankful for that.
things with the bf hasn't made any turn for the better.



its wednesday now,
and i aint feeling any better.
i guess my search for a destination where perfection occurs is causing me to go into the state of insanity.



i hate these issues.
why do you have to constantly bring them up?
arent you a fighter?
fight these feelings, for the sake of yourself, for me, for what you call love.
dont assume you know,
bcos its incomparable.



nownow,
take me away..





where the picture speaks for my heart..