the big L.

tuesday,
5th june 2007.
10:57am.



woah.
time really flies.
its june already.
been 3 months since the sufferings started.
and there's just 2 more months to the end of all these.



sufferings.
i call them.
but, will there be happiness waiting for me after all these?
i wonder...
for now, i feel there isnt any anticipation for me to want to end my internship.



now i finally understand why the saying "i dont wanna grow up/older" exist.
bcos it sucks to be an adult.
you gotta know and go through a series of internal conflict with yourself, your mind, your body, your desires, your needs, your life.
there's just too much, seriously too much for one to think and expect.



love,
is stupid sometimes.
and it definitely has the ability to drive one bonkers.



but why do pple still fall in love?
is there true love?
or merely companionship to pass days living in this lonesome world?
might it be that people always like the satisfaction of being pursued for, or vice-versa, being able to pursue someone?
is there lust involved?
why do people believe that love at first sight exist?
why one particular person you will be head over heels for?
why can some change their love so abruptly?



perhaps only experience will allow us to understand these questions,
thus might also be the reason why people are falling in love.
its all a cycle.



love; game or not?
often people refer love as a game; game of love, why so?
well, ever wondered why people of some kind are refered to players?
these are the people who play and participate in the game of love.
it is easy to be a player, but once you break the rules of the game, you wll suffer the most terrible heartaches.
and have you wondered what makes players so keen on playing the game?
apparently, its very interesting to have new player in a game,
players are motivated by the sense of a new and fresh feeling to a different game. they like to explore and try different things out.
in games like these, both parties wouldnt exactly include emotions in. they'l just enjoy the game while it last before ending the game with a big GG (goodgame).


some respect players who express their disinterest and make it a point to a justified goodbye.
some thinks its cool to just disappear into thin air and never to appear again, leaving the other party yearning.
well.
its not for me to judge which kinda players deserve more respect.
i would say,
if you're not game for it,
stay outta it.
(:



so,
tell me.
to love, or not to?


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i went to bbdc for driving lessons ytd.
damn boring lesson.
almost fell asleep.
zzz.
and it was home sweet home after the lessons.
frigging tired.
talked on the phone with cherie for awhile and spoke to him last night.
he grew stronger.
and is happier.
(:



work today went okay so far.
did jackpot collection, then it was yam cake for breakfast before settling down.
hur.



shall update later again.
ciao.



the freshness turned stale.