those thoughts.

tuesday morning.


many thoughts ran through my mind last night.
or rather,
this morning.
as i lay on my bed from 2 to 3 plus, the most random and weird thoughts came onto my mind, and they kept me occupied for really really long.



well, the first thought tt came onto my mind was the scene of my messy room before i switched off the lights.
its just so horrible.
the endless pile of clothes, the table that looked like my house just got ransacked, the spray paint vandalism on the walls, the way my bed stands.. etc etc.
argh!
not to mention the poor neglected laptop sitting on the corner of my bed.
when the hell will i ever have my room revamped?
i wanna repaint my walls, pack my wardrobe, shift my bed and dump that table away.
GRRRR.
next,
i wanna fix my laptop. make it pretty all over again.



now, maybe i shall talk more about my own habits.
i haven exactly took a bus to work since a month or so ago.
can you imagine?
dialling for cab every single day i get my ass to work? hello. its a frigging 12 bucks. 12 times 5 times 4 equals 240 bucks a month on cab to work.
sigh.
but i just cant seem to wake up early enough to catch a bus to work lahh.
):
how to curb this stupid habit?
and, i haven been going home during the weekends since 2 months back as well.
been staying with the boyfriend almost every weekend.
tts not it.
i even got leaves during weekdays bcos i couldnt wake up in time for work due to late night chilling in town.
!!!



save me, someone.
it seems like i feel damn broke always.
though i know i've been spending like crazy,
but i've also been working really hard trying to earn more than what i spend.
mon-fri at office,
weekends in town.
now, im gonna start taking up free lance event jobs too.
and all these will be for nothing but money.
haha.



i realised,
how much time i've wasted doing useless things tt used to be fun for me.
but now,
they're just useless things tt i used to do to pass time.
so,
im counting on myself to quit doing these things.
:p



im pretty uncertain if i wanna tell the world this open secret,
or should i say,
closed fact.



fri was hectic.
sat was perfect.
sunday was surprising.
monday was lazy.



went to dragonfly on fri night to be greeted by a FULL HOUSE stand.
but luckily, we managed to get in within 15 mins,
which was to be considerably fast then.
drank a couple of glasses and headed home to rest at about 3 plus.
was really tired.



sat.
we woke up early and went down to far east for lunch tog before going to work.
had chicken rice.
(:
it was a joyful day.
went back tog right after i ended work.



sun.
woke up, went home and made honeybunny come over for some tanning session.
was really addictive!
and really fun.
i got slightly darker.
and im happy!
:D
went to meet kerry, bear and prawn for dinner at IMM before heading down far east to look for love.
accompanied jie for dinner, and we met jason for some drinks at gelare.
then we headed down to pick samuel up to meet the rest of the gang at marina south.
ate a lil and then we took a maxi cab down to cine for kbox to celebrate hazel's bdae!
heh.



happy 18th bdae cube!
love you manymany.
you're now legal to party with me!
(:




haha.
didnt go work on monday.
felt really drained after all the activities during the weekends,
so we stayed in and slept till 5 plus in the evening.
damn lazy to wake up.
then it was home sweet home.



sigh.
am i buying time?
or am i buying entertainment to burn time till the time is right?
nvm,
no one'll prolly understand what shit im talking about.



the differences stand.
well, not exactly.
just those horrible restrictions.
so we failed.
and tts tt.
no turning back,
i think.
i think.
i hope.
not.
):



if only you could know what i mean..
come back,
bcos i miss your presence.




i think i should come up with resolutions on going home early again.
and whatsoever tt'll make me a better person.
:D




okay,
toodles.