LOVE.

you chose it this way..


this is a really short week.
(:
took leave on monday and thursday.
wasnt really feeling quite well ytd.
felt rather weak and drained.



my mind's whirling.
and im feeling really confused.
like one moment i feel like im almighty, next moment i feel really sore and weak.
one moment i got the urge to cry, next moment i'll be telling myself cry for fuck.



nothing but a mass of contradictions.
and tts the least i need from anyone this moment.
so please,
explain.
grow up.
im seriously pissed by juvenile miscommunications.
okay the term above is self declared. but i suppose easy to comprehend.
ohh WHATEVER.



love?
hur.
tickle me.
i really never believed that love was just love.
its all packaged with ur financial stability, your age, your qualifications, your physical appearance so and so.
maybe tts why personality tests are always telling me tt my empathy and trust are at the lowest.
lust takes a few mins to exist.
like takes a few days to grow.
love takes a few months to nurture.
tts what i feel.
and tts tt.
who gives a damn to thinking about being together for long or till the end of time or whatever.
fuck to forever. you know it wont happen.
its always the moment tt counts. that special moment.
and what for get so fucked up over something or someone you know will soon end up as a passerby in your life?
maybe im wrong, but who knows.



shall think no more.
though i know its gonna pop up sooner or later to kill my brain cells again.
oh well,
sigh.



got friendly match later!
hopefully the weather doesnt get all gloomy.
(:
uh, i feel like shitting this very moment.
hahaha.




and im dying to catch a movie.
any show will do.
ahaha. well, not exactly.
any show tt im fine with.
:p



oh love,
wont you just buzz off.




the L word.