late night rantings.

the urges you cant explain.



hello world.
im feeling moody.
i cant seem to get myself right.


my mind's whirling like mad.
and this mass of contraction is driving me nuts.


so tell me,
what am i to do.


im staring at my lappy's screen,
and thats that.
i haven got the mood to do anything but to jus type blindly.
stare at the alphabets tts coming out.
awed by how they manage to form words tt people understand.


nothing new,
the same old routines of my lifeless life
;went to work on sat at cine,
and went to party thereafter.
didnt feel really good.
in fact, i felt quite rotten.
so i drank, and had the mentality that i wasnt feeling good, so all the more i should get myself piss drunk.
and i did.
but tt didnt got me feeling better. i felt really horrible.


it probably showed the weak side of me.
but somehow, that side of me didnt embarrassed me.
i mean, at least it proves tt im humane.
things are starting to get really complicated.
and its worse when im a pretty complex person already.


i wish to escape.
and i know its darn stupid.
i feel really empty.
and you know you fill my emptiness.
so wont you take me away from this horrible place and make me happy?



If I could escape I would but,
First of all, let me say
I must apologize for acting stank & treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?

If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world
& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out, I need to get me out of this joint
Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around, let's look for some common ground
So baby, times get a little crazy
I've been gettin' a little lazy, waitin' on you to come save me
I can see that you're angry by the way that you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me, wanted you with me


the song i adore currently.
maybe im too engrossed with the idea of escaping from reality.
oh well.
good depiction of my thoughts.


shall wait up for mac before i turn in.
taa.





and i miss you like never before.