fuck it.

when people fail you.



was feeling pretty happy about school, for several reasons, one, its one more week to end of school. two, i've done almost all i was assigned and supposed to do for the projs.



then bam, i was hit. so badly. so fucking badly its starting to hurt.
but if you realised, it was pretty much expected.
yeah. from the superficial and realistic pple, what more can you expect?
people do change.



why do people get so evil.
where's their sense of empathy and understanding?
perhaps they're fucking easily influenced.
perhaps they've got nothing better to do.
perhaps..
perhaps..
perhaps its just me.



nothing is going right.
and nothing's gonna work out either.



so now what?
the unreliable and incompetent one whose efforts are not seen as efforts.
"i've read the story, and i dont think she put in any effort".
yeah, this quote is prolly a hundred times stronger to support any of my sentences in the stories.
so tell me, world,
what difference does it make.
if efforts are useless, helpless.
whats the point.
nothing's pushing me forward.
nothing.
no one.



"you have yourself to blame."
i could clearly see the thoughts in their minds.




go figure.
and you'll realise how helpless one would be when whatever she does is of no use.




so what more can i say.
pple who read me,
you should prolly know.
im gonna fail one freaking module and repeat it in year 3.




if only..