emo.

it feels so bad.
and if only someone can understand what im experiencing.
i wonder why life's like tt.
and as i type, im breathing so heavily, and im swallowing so hard, trying my best to push back the blobs of mucus from running out.
the precious are now at the brim of my lower eyelids.
and never did i expect them to fall on this night.




so, you thought you're always strong, dont you?
stop putting up the brave front, you weakling.
you suck.
you really suck.
you should just fucking go to hell.




i remember the days i did both of you proud.
the vivid scene of you both smiling so widely.
and slowly, as time come to pass,
while you watch me grow, i start to notice the white hair and wrinkles appearing.
sadly enough, i dont even get close enough to notice your faces getting thinner by the days.
but i really love you,
mom and dad.




depicts my exact feelings.


your subtleties
they strangle me
i cant explain myself at all.
and all the wants
and all the needs
all i dont want to need at all.

the walls start breathing
my minds unweaving
maybe its best you leave me alone.
a weight is lifted
on this evening
i give the final blow.




girl, its time you grew up..