you know,
whenever i read random pple's blogs, i always have the urge to blog. okay. i know im weird. but whatever.



i feel stoned. like suddenly, something hit me, telling me that the world is moving on without me. i feel left behind. whats wrong with me man. others are already doing their A's, constantly worrying and trying hard to sit down, mug hard for the A's.



and im just a fucking poly student, slacking my life away, having my term break.



some will say,
wats wrong with trying to attain a diploma in mass communications in ngee ann poly? its just a different aspect, a more detailed and clear route for your future, and it is absolutely okay.



but fuck it.
i need a direction.
i need to have something, a dream, whatever it might be, for me to achieve.



from what i see now, this shit leads me to nothing.



sigh.
i thought i was always optimistic?



perhaps its jus the phone incident that blew me down for now.
perhaps.




and im gone.