sad :(

sometimes, life will come to a point where you feel so down and you just wanna scream and shout and you get damn pissed and annoyed with everyone and every lil thing tt goes in ur way.


and i broke down hysterically a couple of days ago. i swear the balls of mucus and tears taste freaking horrible. my mom and dad was quite worried as i screamed and shouted like nobody's business.


why am i blogging all these? you would ask. tts bcos i have nowhere to vent my frustrations on except on my boyfriend, but now he's taking my shit no more, thus, blogging and breaking down is the only way out.


nevertheless, i stil had some happy moments through the weekend playing xbox and sleeping throughout a day. getting my new specs made me happier as well. though nth beats the stress and unhappiness im experiencing.


suddenly, i feel so lost. i feel no longer like the wild cat i am. the strong and powerful one tt never lets anything into my way. instead, i feel like a fucking pussycat, small and useless.


i just wanna get everything done and over with.


things to be completed:
1. e-zine flash banner
2. e-zine content and pictures for fashion, beauty and food
3. radio talkshow [interviewee and script]
4. newswg article on balik kampong [cover the event and interview]
5. PR final project
6. locvid test [done!]
7. webd journal [done!]
8. exams


hmm. isnt so bad after all.


i hate my brother and his wife a fucking lot. i wish they'll just fuck off and die. and i swear i mean it. they are dumb, immature and totally retarded. they should jus stop wasting natural resources. fuck it. fuck them.


stay with me.


P.s. i love you mickey. i really really do.


shall touch up on my journal and study a lil for locvid b4 i get some rest.
good night.